No love for Shamu

  Ethan has a Shamu hand puppet that I bought him when we came to Sea World in Florida when he was eight months old.

He carries that puppet everywhere he goes, even during bath time because he thinks it will perform the way he saw at Sea World or like what he has seen in the movie Free Willy. Last Thursday I took Amalia to her eye doctor and we had to wait a while because the doctor was running late. Ms. Amalia was getting cranky and I decided to take Shamu and entertain her but to my surprise she did not take it well. Amalia showed me a side I have yet not seen. She showed me fear. She was afraid of the puppet.

Once I placed the puppet in my hand and just showed her she squinted her

eyes, pouted her lips and cried. I comfort her and tried again, because I thought that it was because she was tired. NOOOO.....I just showed her Shamu and this time she yelled and pushed my hand.

 It brought a smile to my face, not because I am a mean mom or want to torture my child its because she is afraid of something. I do not remember if I read somewhere or someone told me, children with Down Syndrome do not sense fear what so ever. The Doctor came in did her check up, by the way she probably would need another eye surgery, however I could not stop thinking of her reaction. Once we finish with the doctor I drove back home and tried again with Shamu, just because I thought this is her environment, her home that she is familiar with and BINGO, she pushed my hand away from her face and screamed. She can not see the puppet from a distance, she does not love Shamu.

I hope when she gets older, she fears strangers and not stuffed animals or hand puppets.

                                    

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2 Timothy 1:7

For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control

Hebrews 13:6

So we can confidently say, “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?”



And this too shall pass......

  Not quite sure how to write this blog...the couples of day my emotions have been like a roller coaster...one moment I am happy and can conquer the world..minutes later I am crying my eye balls out for no apparent reasons....When I feel sad or neutral..wait NEUTRAL is a feeling? Yes, for me at least. Neutral is that feeling where you are numb, don't smile, nor laugh, not angry nor sad, just NEUTRAL. I tell myself this too shall pass, because I know if I feel a certain way I can at least do something about it but neutral..yeah that is a challenge....and this too shall pass...I catch myself saying this quite often. For instance, when Ethan refuse to be potty train because his sisters wears diaper..i say...and this too shall pass....when  Ethan rather sleep on my bed and have me sleeping by the edge pillow less..I say and this too shall pass.... when Amalia has not yet sit up or even attempts too...and this too shall pass....when Amalia does not want to hold her bottle or even attempt too....and this too shall pass....when i feel overwhelm and crying seems like the only rescue at the time...and this too shall pass....when i dread going out food shopping with two little ones, in where i need to place my food items around Amalia car seats and having a three year old constantly telling me " Mommy cookie, cookie, cookie"..and this too shall pass...(sigh).....this list can go one FOREVER, but this too shall pass...ha-ha-ha....One day when all these moments do pass by, I am going to wish I had them back.

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Philippians 3:13-14

Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Romans 8:28

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

Philippians 4:13

I can do all things through him who strengthens me.